Most people probably just say that I’m “a little different.” Some may go as far as calling me a freak or weirdo. The fact is that I am a little odd. Okay, maybe a lot odd. When I sat down to list all of the ways that I don’t fit within what is culturally considered “normal” I was actually shocked with the length of the list. I’ll give you just an overview of all the ways that I don’t necessarily fit.
1) We lived in Siberia for 4 years… when our 2 oldest children were just babies/toddlers.
2) Our son has autism.
3) We do the “home church” thing.
4) I gave birth to my youngest at home with a midwife.
5) We drink unpasteurized, unhomogenized milk.
6) I just washed my hair with a baking soda and water solution instead of shampoo.
7) I don’t eat pork, shellfish, or other Biblically “unclean” foods.
I could actually go on but I think I’ll stop before you close this web page never to open it again.
So that’s why I chose “Square Peg in a Round Hole” as the title to my blog. Frankly, most of the time I am very aware of the fact that I don’t fit and I often fight against this. I want to fit in. I want people to like me. But, to tell you the truth, another part of me likes being different. Even though I don’t always succeed, I want to be a person of conviction… someone who lives what I believe even if it is unpopular. Even if it makes other people scratch their head.
On my list, I left out the main way that I am different. I am different because I follow Jesus and am a daughter of God. My prayer is that this alone will set me apart. That people will recognize me as different, not because of the quirky decisions that I make, but because of the Spirit of Christ that lives inside of me. That I will be baffling to most people, not because of the fact that I moved my family to Siberia or milked goats or tossed my shampoo but because of what it says in I John 3:1: “See how great a love the Father has bestowed on us, that we would be called children of God ; and such we are. For this reason the world does not know us, because it did not know Him.” And that I will never become too comfortable in this life because, after all, “This world is not my home.”
